When I was 35 I read there are two driving forces in human response that are the parents of all responses: fear and love. I think of Bacon and Rembrandt. Once obsessed with Bacon, I later grew to find Rembrandt had way more courage to get close to seeing life and death. Looking at Rembrandt’s self portrait, I had the feeling he really dared to love: a deep courage I did not find in Bacon. It was a significant turning point in my approach to painting. Deep down I think we are often afraid of happiness: afraid of the loss that can occur at any time. It takes courage to love something: it is not about escape and release, but decision. This as a creative source, is something totally different to the addictive essence.

There is another kind of repetition: the repetition that comes out of an act of love. Addiction implies need. Love and need are not the same. When you are looking for what you need, you do not discover. repeating without needing or knowing, nothing is the same. There is a freedom in this discovery.’